Wednesday, December 30, 2009

guys...slam perpisahan...

after thinking bout my self...n only me...i had to make da biggest decision ever in my life...ya, may be sum of u did say...when i'm gone, there's no meaning of laugh in ur life..but guys, trust me...i noe da real facts is...u cn lie me..bt u can't never lie to urself...i noe the way of u who really care fo me n who dun...teha, farra...i got da best friendship in my life with u guys...fit, u r da best brother that i cn have beside abg...i dunno hw to repay ur deeds to me...to neffy n zwar..i luv u both coz u r always there when i need u...zwar, i might not able to attend ur wedding...i hope u understand my condition syg...u noe what i meant in dat...neffy, when u cum back here..i want u to promise me to take a gud care of my superb sweetheart..u noe hw i cre fo her..bby, i got the best life with u...thanx coz owez b there fo me...akk syg bby sgt2...to my Gay, Bisex n seductive geng!!!G.B.S!!u guys r da best!!!keep it up...n no more backstabbing..i had enough having dat kind of feeling...k..tc of each others...to both "mak tiri"...u guys r da best cs!!!although act like stepmother!!huhuhuh...luv ya!!to kancil...soie i cnt be a really perfect cs fo u like emy...i hope u'll have a very perfect life with her...coz i noe she wont hurt u...ilysm!!!bye guys!!!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

latest blog of me

Its been a while since my last blog…too busy with my life…not too say dat I’m demn busy…bt, I dun have da space fo my own time…I’m recovering at da moment…before I proceed, I would like to say my condolence to my bestfriend in high school…Nurul Ashikin Kamarudin afte her lost of her beloved father on da 23rd of December 2009…may Allah blessed ur father…Al-Fathihah…hm, back to my blog, bby has been back to her college today…missed u so much!!neffy will b back late since he got unfinished business…weyh, cpt blik!!!rndu dh ha…ahahahah…n to Mr.Azwar…miss u so much babe!!thanx fo lending ur shoulder!!huhu…hm, I’m in a deepest confusing of life!i dunno what I’ve done to my own life n to da person dat I care…I tried to fix it…all..bt it seems like, I kept messing da way out of it!!i’m losing da faith to my own self…I kept hurting my self n others…every person dat I care, will b taken away from me by so called friend(backstabber)…act, I got sumtink to say, I HATE U BACKSTABBER!!!!!!!!!!huh!!when I’m mad to dis particular person, people will said dat I’m too emo(sentap in other words)fo god sake…if u r in my place, u’ll noe da pain…coz I never take what belong to u…n y must u take what’s belong to me!!!!!human gots da patient, so do I...n I think my patient to u r xtreme max!!!huh!!fuck!!!bangsat!!makahai!!!!nk trase, naseb ah babi!!huh!puas ati aku ai!!!to bby, jgn nk kumen2 blog neyh..txt je akk nnti…hm, okey…enough of cursing I think…I would like to dedicated below messages to them who I care so much!!!

Hearts change,

I know they do...
But this heart will always belong to you...
Hearts hurt,
I know they do...
But this heart hurts more without u...

Above txt..makes me regert my life a lot…currently, I act got a very perfect life…I have 1 beautiful family…papa, mama, akk, abg n bg cik…I got great cuzen, aunties n uncle’s…I got 2 pet cs, 1 pet bro n 1 small little pet cs dat I love soooo much!!i besties dat will never failed me even once…n I got bunch of people dat I cn trust(GBS)…bt I dunno what really makes me hurting their feelings over n over again…I do regert it, bt sumtimes, id felt like I’m one STUPID USELESS person to them…guys, if u read my blog….from da bottom of my heart, I would like to apologise to u guys fo da stupid mistakes dat I’ve done..i noe, u guys hate me now…I understand dat…but dun wory guys…I’ll never hate u guys…coz I can’t!!u’ll always b da special one in my life!!!later!!


Friday, December 11, 2009

i luv u ow yes i do

bahhahah...
what a cption aite?well, to b frank, i luv u yes i do..really...cross my heart...no matter what they say bout u...i will never discriminates u...well, stop aite now...jz now my 2 lesbo(emy n andy) fithing like hell...coz one stupid issues..dat is..gay!!bahhahaha..bt now, they had been back together again..weeeeeeeeeeeee....fyi, actually, not really a fight...juz fo fun...
meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...bubuiii

Sunday, December 6, 2009

sumtimes i wonder...

while i'm typing dis...i'm in soooooo bad condition...plaster on my head....headache like i'm dying...till i collapse at one time...luckily i did not die there...hm, well...while i'm lost in da darkest condition of life..sumone dat i've left..i mean, I LEFT!!has juz cum back to me... n really care fo me...until now, i'm bit confused who should i choose????hmmmmmmm...well, to u my dear..thanx n to u da other one..u will always b my priority....laterrrrrrrrrr

Monday, November 23, 2009

far apart from me...

while i'm typing dis...to b frank, my mind is not 100% with me..half of it had been buried with all my burden...watching my frens "nakal"...lokking at my heart face...i felt dat i'm ready to move on with my next life...i wnted to walk on moon..reaching up high da sky...touch da star...bt it all jz my dream...dat for sure will not came true..bt at least...i got a dream..i learn to not be gud to others anymore*dun blame me fo it*...i ran, i walk, i slept...i'm one ordinary gul...bt i'm hyper!!so what???u cant accpt as part of ur life coz i'm boyish??coz i'm hyper???go to hell moron!!i dun even care what u wanna tink bout me!!!huh!!laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Thursday, November 19, 2009

lonely

Show me da meaning of being lonely…

Is juz da feeling I need to walk with..

Tell me y, I can’t b there where u r..

There’s sumtink missing in my life…

This song is by backstreet boys...still remember it???my cuzen bring back da memories with old songs….thanx bg mi..hahahaha…hm, well, dis song really close with my heart…it really symbolize my feeling rite now…show me da meaning of being lonely…since I’ve been apart from u…yes u…I can say, my heart is half empty…I dunno y, but I jz cant get rid of u from my mind…yes, I did said dat I wanna make as if I never noe u..bt, I juz can’t…demn!!!to u my lovely backstabber fren, thanx for taking dis person from me…n I’m pretty sure, u wanna take another one from me..what the FUCK!!!!i never intrude ur life..never take anybody dat u love or care…bt y must u do like dis to me???what da HECK!!to b frank, actually dude…I can’t really see ur face coz I felt like smashing ur face towards da floor!!!i really meant it…n I noe u will read my blog…so, I juz dun care anymore..i’m tired of giving up all my love n them who I care so much to u…yes u busterd!!!fuck!!!if u wanna touched with my words..then go to hell!!!dis quotes is for u…da motherfucker attitude fren!!!

I love them o yes I do…

They r fo me…

Not fo u..

N if by chance..

U take my place..

I’ll take my fist..

And SMASH ur face!!!

laterrrrrrrr

I’m out of breath…


Well, dis week, is da most hectic week in my life..demn!!i hate it..huh!!!so much tink dat need to b done with…soooooo much…until da stage dat I felt like DYING!!siyesly…bt what cn I say..dat is part n parcel of life aite???i cn only redha with it…hm, now…abit of my burden is gone..dat is my mid term exam…next is, futsal, mmc activities n annual dinner…I’m kind of tired, bt I’m pretty sure, we’ll cum out with great result soon…heheheee…my bobo is cuming back from aussie..hahhah…cant wait to c his fat face..ahagagggaga….later…