guys...slam perpisahan...

after thinking bout my self...n only me...i had to make da biggest decision ever in my life...ya, may be sum of u did say...when i'm gone, there's no meaning of laugh in ur life..but guys, trust me...i noe da real facts is...u cn lie me..bt u can't never lie to urself...i noe the way of u who really care fo me n who dun...teha, farra...i got da best friendship in my life with u guys...fit, u r da best brother that i cn have beside abg...i dunno hw to repay ur deeds to me...to neffy n zwar..i luv u both coz u r always there when i need u...zwar, i might not able to attend ur wedding...i hope u understand my condition syg...u noe what i meant in dat...neffy, when u cum back here..i want u to promise me to take a gud care of my superb sweetheart..u noe hw i cre fo her..bby, i got the best life with u...thanx coz owez b there fo me...akk syg bby sgt2...to my Gay, Bisex n seductive geng!!!G.B.S!!u guys r da best!!!keep it up...n no more backstabbing..i had enough having dat kind of feeling...k..tc of each others...to both "mak tiri"...u guys r da best cs!!!although act like stepmother!!huhuhuh...luv ya!!to kancil...soie i cnt be a really perfect cs fo u like emy...i hope u'll have a very perfect life with her...coz i noe she wont hurt u...ilysm!!!bye guys!!!

latest blog of me

Its been a while since my last blog…too busy with my life…not too say dat I’m demn busy…bt, I dun have da space fo my own time…I’m recovering at da moment…before I proceed, I would like to say my condolence to my bestfriend in high school…Nurul Ashikin Kamarudin afte her lost of her beloved father on da 23^rd of December 2009…may Allah blessed ur father…Al-Fathihah…hm, back to my blog, bby has been back to her college today…missed u so much!!neffy will b back late since he got unfinished business…weyh, cpt blik!!!rndu dh ha…ahahahah…n to Mr.Azwar…miss u so much babe!!thanx fo lending ur shoulder!!huhu…hm, I’m in a deepest confusing of life!i dunno what I’ve done to my own life n to da person dat I care…I tried to fix it…all..bt it seems like, I kept messing da way out of it!!i’m losing da faith to my own self…I kept hurting my self n others…every person dat I care, will b taken away from me by so called friend(backstabber)…act, I got sumtink to say, I HATE U BACKSTABBER!!!!!!!!!!huh!!when I’m mad to dis particular person, people will said dat I’m too emo(sentap in other words)fo god sake…if u r in my place, u’ll noe da pain…coz I never take what belong to u…n y must u take what’s belong to me!!!!!human gots da patient, so do I...n I think my patient to u r xtreme max!!!huh!!fuck!!!bangsat!!makahai!!!!nk trase, naseb ah babi!!huh!puas ati aku ai!!!to bby, jgn nk kumen2 blog neyh..txt je akk nnti…hm, okey…enough of cursing I think…I would like to dedicated below messages to them who I care so much!!!

Hearts change,

I know they do...
But this heart will always belong to you...
Hearts hurt,
I know they do...
But this heart hurts more without u...

Above txt..makes me regert my life a lot…currently, I act got a very perfect life…I have 1 beautiful family…papa, mama, akk, abg n bg cik…I got great cuzen, aunties n uncle’s…I got 2 pet cs, 1 pet bro n 1 small little pet cs dat I love soooo much!!i besties dat will never failed me even once…n I got bunch of people dat I cn trust(GBS)…bt I dunno what really makes me hurting their feelings over n over again…I do regert it, bt sumtimes, id felt like I’m one STUPID USELESS person to them…guys, if u read my blog….from da bottom of my heart, I would like to apologise to u guys fo da stupid mistakes dat I’ve done..i noe, u guys hate me now…I understand dat…but dun wory guys…I’ll never hate u guys…coz I can’t!!u’ll always b da special one in my life!!!later!!

i luv u ow yes i do

bahhahah...

what a cption aite?well, to b frank, i luv u yes i do..really...cross my heart...no matter what they say bout u...i will never discriminates u...well, stop aite now...jz now my 2 lesbo(emy n andy) fithing like hell...coz one stupid issues..dat is..gay!!bahhahaha..bt now, they had been back together again..weeeeeeeeeeeee....fyi, actually, not really a fight...juz fo fun...

meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...bubuiii

sumtimes i wonder...

while i'm typing dis...i'm in soooooo bad condition...plaster on my head....headache like i'm dying...till i collapse at one time...luckily i did not die there...hm, well...while i'm lost in da darkest condition of life..sumone dat i've left..i mean, I LEFT!!has juz cum back to me... n really care fo me...until now, i'm bit confused who should i choose????hmmmmmmm...well, to u my dear..thanx n to u da other one..u will always b my priority....laterrrrrrrrrr

far apart from me...

while i'm typing dis...to b frank, my mind is not 100% with me..half of it had been buried with all my burden...watching my frens "nakal"...lokking at my heart face...i felt dat i'm ready to move on with my next life...i wnted to walk on moon..reaching up high da sky...touch da star...bt it all jz my dream...dat for sure will not came true..bt at least...i got a dream..i learn to not be gud to others anymore*dun blame me fo it*...i ran, i walk, i slept...i'm one ordinary gul...bt i'm hyper!!so what???u cant accpt as part of ur life coz i'm boyish??coz i'm hyper???go to hell moron!!i dun even care what u wanna tink bout me!!!huh!!laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

lonely

Show me da meaning of being lonely…

Is juz da feeling I need to walk with..

Tell me y, I can’t b there where u r..

There’s sumtink missing in my life…

This song is by backstreet boys...still remember it???my cuzen bring back da memories with old songs….thanx bg mi..hahahaha…hm, well, dis song really close with my heart…it really symbolize my feeling rite now…show me da meaning of being lonely…since I’ve been apart from u…yes u…I can say, my heart is half empty…I dunno y, but I jz cant get rid of u from my mind…yes, I did said dat I wanna make as if I never noe u..bt, I juz can’t…demn!!!to u my lovely backstabber fren, thanx for taking dis person from me…n I’m pretty sure, u wanna take another one from me..what the FUCK!!!!i never intrude ur life..never take anybody dat u love or care…bt y must u do like dis to me???what da HECK!!to b frank, actually dude…I can’t really see ur face coz I felt like smashing ur face towards da floor!!!i really meant it…n I noe u will read my blog…so, I juz dun care anymore..i’m tired of giving up all my love n them who I care so much to u…yes u busterd!!!fuck!!!if u wanna touched with my words..then go to hell!!!dis quotes is for u…da motherfucker attitude fren!!!

I love them o yes I do…

They r fo me…

Not fo u..

N if by chance..

U take my place..

I’ll take my fist..

And SMASH ur face!!!

laterrrrrrrr

I’m out of breath…

Well, dis week, is da most hectic week in my life..demn!!i hate it..huh!!!so much tink dat need to b done with…soooooo much…until da stage dat I felt like DYING!!siyesly…bt what cn I say..dat is part n parcel of life aite???i cn only redha with it…hm, now…abit of my burden is gone..dat is my mid term exam…next is, futsal, mmc activities n annual dinner…I’m kind of tired, bt I’m pretty sure, we’ll cum out with great result soon…heheheee…my bobo is cuming back from aussie..hahhah…cant wait to c his fat face..ahagagggaga….later…

She who I knew for 2 & ½ years

• Super hyper girl.
• Good hearted girl.
• Boyish but she is my princess.
• Jealousy!!
• Never like to share them who she love & care with others.
• She know how to make people around her smile.
• Great disciplines.
• My Shugga_Bubu
• She’s a family type girl.
• Great talent as good listener.
• She always got the idea how to solve a problem.
• She was born to be a decision maker.
• Taken by me.
• Bad tempered girl.
• Her family called her “Sayang”
• Good fighter.
• She’s a excellent guardian.
• She hate traitor!!
• Kids love her. Trust me!
• Stubborn.
• She respect people that is older than her.
• She’s obsessed with teddy bears.
• Once she had make her mind, no body could stop her.
• She hate pink!!
• She’s a vengeful.
• She know how to keep one heart from broken.
• General knowledge is her expertise.
• She love mother nature and animal.
• Don’t like rude people.
• With her, you’ll never cry.
• Hate discrimination.

Bubu, I’d known you for 2 and ½ years. You are the best that I ever had. Love,

You’re A.M.N,

Neffy

Monologue for juniors….

This time, I will write in Malay + English obviously...its been quite sumtimes fo me to make up my mind, write sumtink about u guys…my juniors, I’m writing dis blog jz to xpress my P.O.V about u guys…since day 1, u guys seems dun hve respect towards us as ur seniors…what the heck!!ktowg x mnx kowng sujud kaki ktowng pon…jz respect us like we respect u as our juniors…the 1^st batch of juniors…if I’m nt mistaken, early march…(I take it coz dat moment, I’m a fully seniors)..cre kowng pndang ktowang yg senior, as if ktowang junior kowang n kowang senior ktowang…LOSER!!!!kowang xde respect kt ktowang…tgo pon mcm bgos…nk pndg kerek sume…pe masalah kowang???stakat bru jd juniors, jgn nk menggelabak ah…menyampah ktowang…pas uh prasan ah yg ktowang slalu pndg2 kowang ah…e2 ah…ini ah…FYI, mke ko uh mnx pnyepak aku je!!dh kne sound tepek pon lg nk tnjuk bgos…pas uh de plak ctegories yg nk obses2 ngan owng…gle babi pe kowang???hak alahai…lemah aku tgk kowang neyh taw x…cm budak2…ngan kes nk push2 minat lg…adoi…dh owang x ske uh…jgn la pkse…ko pkey ko great sgt???(annoyed us like hell!!!)bt, I have to admit…x smua juniors yg macm uh…bt majorities r…yg okey yg ktowang tgk…fara(adik team ktowang)…“double-trouble”(nia & finy)…mr.buncit(shapix)…n few others la…mang okey to us…respect pon de…hurm, ha…notes to u guys…others junior…slagi ktowang respect kowang as juniors…respect la ktowang blik ye…bkn kt ktowang je…kt sume seniors yg len…n to all staff kt kolej uh pon ye…laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

What does Friendship mean???

While I’m typing dis…I’m really tired n I tink like I’m dying…huh!!hate dis!!hurm, its been a very tired week fo me…bt unfortunately, I cant really slept well n rest long enough….demn!!hm, ha..i wanted to tell my point of view dis time…with my own subject…friendship…as I cn say…fo me…friendship mean them who will always b there when u need n always will support u no matter what…dat what friendship means fo me…bt…in dis world…there cn b various type of friends rite??untl one stage, I’m confused with them…they said dat they r ur friend, bt not really understand u…they said they r ur friend, bt never support u n they push u fo what u dun like…I juz cant understand dat…me…fo now…I’m epy dat I have my besties n my GBS gang who always there with me…n I always there fo them too…never failed me even once…I dunno bout u guys out there who read my blog…if u got bunch of friends like me…b thankful with it…coz not all got friends like u got…n to all my friends…besties n GBS…love u guys..muahhhhhh

overnite in one of buddy house!!

well, while i'm typin dis...i'm in my friend house...slept here for one nite after demn tired doing our works....huh!!!me, ekin, ak n wan...4 demn crazy people in one house...ruing our life again n again...dun worry...we didn't do anytink...jz messing our life around...ahhahhahaha....we took daring pix that if one day...i upload it into my page...people dun really trust, it is me...ahahahahha.....we slept around 3.3o A.M...again...A.M...hahaha...then, now...at 7.35 A.M...we're dressing up to college...can u imagine the ctuation...ahhahahahah.....our mate is demn sembab!!!!aioyo!!!!adik...xmo sedey lg...to me kakak...i really miss to bully u...ahahhaha....to A.P..leave me alone...i'm happy with my life....n to A.M.N...syg...siyes...i didn't do anytink...ahahhahaha....laterrrrrr

Battlefield!!!

I juz came back from training…I’m quite tired…u noe how hot Malaysia lately…urgh!!!i felt like crying now!!!its been a while since I felt dis sad…lets bygone b bygone..i dun want to b SAD anymore….to b frank I felt my life is so complete now!!!i mean it!!so, to u whom it may concern…I am happy with my life….i felt like I dun need u anymore, since u have expelled me from ur life b4…I dun want to face the battle anymore…dat field is not mine…I had left it…long time ago…not dat I’m scared…bt, I dun want to mess my life fo stupid reason….i’m not a fighter…but I’ll fight for what I love…datz all…n u r not my love anymore…..adiox!!!

Weekend with all my GBS n Cosmo staff…

On 17^th October 2009, we went to Mini Malaysia, Malacca to attend one occasion with Malacca people…more than 500 students from various IPT attend this occasion…all da guls wore baju kurung(including me)while all da boys wearing t-shirt…hehehehe…obviously, my group is always da havoc one!!hahahahaha…bunch of crazy mambo people with crazy mambo attitude…(dun like us, then backoff!!!)then, after reloading our stomach with food, we went around dat mini Malaysia area to visit houses of Malaysia…then, we went back to bus, to change our clothes…for sure I won’t wear baju kurung for long…after changing our clothes in bus, we walked up to 2 kilometers ahead to McD near taman buaya…demn…we nearly DIE!!hahahahah..then, kak jue called us n asked us, where we r…she then came to taman buaya with rest of the studnt…then, we entered the taman buaya…inside this park, there’s a ghost house…I asked them to join me entered this house..inside, the fun begin…hahahahahah…me, kak jue n kak dayah walked together..n my GBS is da 1^st team to entered this place…ahhahaha…inside, we screamed like hell…n me???laughing till I got no more energy to laugh…ahahhahah…but I can say, it really fun inside there…after releasing more than a ton of sweat…we went to visit all the crocs…they really have waited for us…ahahhahahahah….after posing, taking pix and went around dat area, its time for us to went back….in bus, my adrenalin is higher than ever…I am really demn mad…n my energy is raising up…after reaching seremban…me n ak, took another bus to pd….at last, we r back home…bt I can say, dis memory will never be forgotten by me….adiox!!!

Treasure hunt…da hunting dat make us die!!!

Wehuuuuuuuuuu…hahahaha…well, on da 10^th of Oct…2009 obviously…wahahaha…me, ak, kak fyna n kak lyssa...join one program that I cn say, I never expected dat I’ll b in…ahhahahaha…Treasure hunt…well, I never thought dat we could complete it…although not all Q been answered…hehe…what I can say is…we really have fun..n demn tired…on da morning, we r all with fabulous style..bt after answering 3 Q,our fabulous style, gone!!ahahahah…well, we traveled more than 95 km for around 5 hours…crazy!!!i nearly flat like hell or in easy way, dying!!!uhuhu..well, not to b a liar..we lost!!bt we gain sumtink there…FUN!!!we laugh..laugh n laugh…ahhahaha…well, u guys noe me rite???i love to laugh without noeing the word stop…ahhahahahah…what makes us feel angry is, when da Q is not reasonable at all..i felt like slapping the Q maker…ahahhahah…ha, n u noe what…all the vehicle on da road been cursed by me n been called “pig” instead of what the original call r..hahahaha…dat show how angry I am…gagagaggag…hm, congratulation BN for winning at the Bagan Pinang elction…umno terus mara, untuk rakyat Malaysia!!!!i am ur voter…adiox!!!

Putus - melda ahmad

This young talented gurl been introduced to me by my little gems sis..haahah…although at first she introduced me with song title kimia(chemistry), bt then I found out one song called putus..the lyrics n melody dat really makes me played this song more than once until papa asked me, dun I have any other songs in my player anymore…huhhu…da lyrics is like dis...

aku duduk sendirian di kamarku,
menangis kesepian kernamu,
kau tinggalkan aku,
kau cari yang len,
tergamakmu merobek hatiku.

tapi setelah kau pegi aku
mendapat lebih baik drmu,
dia hargai aku,
dia sygi aku
lebih drpdmu,
aku ingin kau tahu betapa ku gembira,
tidak lg bersamamu,
namun pastinyer nnt kau akan sedari,

yang kau perlu cintaku,…

to u dat I dedicated this song….i still remember da day n date when u said dat u’ll never leave me…bt now..u had done it…bt may b b4 I really need u to be strong when dat time, u came exactly when I need sumbody with…bt now…I dun care anymore…I’m stronger than u tink…n I’m really okey with it…juz find this song…n I bet u guys out there will like it!!!yeay!!laterrrr

My weekends…My weekends…

Well, dis weekends really brings back my smile…smile dati had lost for more than 3 months…first n foremost…my sweetheart…Muhammad Azwar came to c me…hehehehe…babe, I really missed u taw…dat day, Saturday…I was all alone at home…mama n papa went out…n since my leg was injured n not yet heal…I prefer to stayed at home…then, while I’m really bored, one car arrived in front of my house…I tot of may b people wanna come for raya…bt what a surprised, when I went out to see who, I recognize 1 guy dat I really missed…dat time I dunno what n how to describe my feeling…da person dat took care of me, r rite in front of me…yahoooo!!!!!hahahahaha…he came with Dek n Ned…we went to Seremban to have some times n chatting about our lifes…hahaha..n what a surprised…both of them…dek n Tyco is getting married soon with their partner…hehehe…n I’m da most happiest gul in world rite now…coz da time for them had arrived…hehehe…although tyco can’t spent time more with us…bt I’m really happy to c him..he had change a lot…I cn see his faith towards Islam is more now…Syukur…dek sent me home since tyco need to went back to his school…then, da next day, Sunday…I with my family went to klang, to my uncle house…I hang out with my cuzens…chit chating about everything..n I meant every single things…ahhahh..bt really, it really bring backs my smile…heheeeee…we really have so much fun time…ahhahah..with all da QC things….n what more important is…I ate too much food…hahahahaha..i hope my body is not dat fat…aggagaga…hm, later I’ll update more…adiox!!

The world is angry!!so do our LORD!!!

While I’m typing dis, thousands of people had lost their life to the battle with mother nature…to them who had involves in da earthquakes, Tsunami, typhoon and high waves…my condolence is all I can give beside my prays…I juz wanted to share with u guys sumtink…not to say dat I’m perfect…bt as Muslims, knowledge is to be shared with… I received 1 email from my friend…I him when I from one of my sports tournaments…to b frank, I’m really shocked with that mail…he, whom I know is one, not dat normal guy…u noe what I meant…he agev me this mail…tell me that he’s now in Al-Azhar university…huh!!dat really makes my heart stop beating…bt Alhamdulillah…he has gone back to where he should be…world is angry…dats what he told me…he said..we as human r destroying da world n our own selves…we’re making sins, wrong doing n all dat stuff dat can makes world n Allah to b angry…when he told me dat, it really strikes deep in my heart…he said dat we keep pushing da world to da limit…we’re da creature who destroying our own selves..keep blaming da satan for whispering all da negatives things to us..bt in facts we’re da one…keep pointing others for da mistakes dat u’ve done..pliz!!stop…he told me this one true story…it is about a group of people dat have different kind of background…bt they have sumtink in common…sinners…he said dat dis group is bunch of moron which keep questioning the fate..they dun want to change their own fate..pliz!!dun be stupid!!he told me that this moron, done everything dat is wrong…n all of them r not really in one orientation…then, one they..after they all commit sins…and still doing it…Allah punished them..my friend said, may be coz he had done waiting…n he wanted them to learn sumtink…all of them died there…its not da story dat I wanted to tell..bt da lesson…da lesson is…dun pushed Him to da limit…coz he is so merciful to us for allowing us to stay for free in His “home”… sumtimes I felt wrong when I keep excepting da sins from others without advising them like those who use to advised me when I’m wrong…nt dat I dun want to..bt I’m sick to…it is hard to advised rather than excpting it..i juz can say dis…da time for u to realized ur mistakes is there…it can be either..now, tomorrow or later…bt sooner or later u will…n it can either b, u had gone to far from track…or u juz besides da track…laterrrrrrrrrrr…..

The decision is yours…

In past few weeks, there’s one ads in tv dat really attracted me to write sumtink is dis blog…it’s about stop smoking campaign…nowdays, there’s more than 1 million or more as I cn say, really a heavy smoker…well, to be frank, now, womens r too…so, pliz dun try to denied it…nothing wrong for u to admit ur wrongs rite???like me..i’m…so???u want to kill me???dun be stupid..u r not God to judge me or others…u tink u r free from wrong doings???bullshit…u r not..its juz either u realized it or dun..like me,most of my mistakes I realized it…only dat, it’s hard for me to change it…n really takes time..okey…back to my story...before I lost track…nowdays, government had put pictures of da side effects of smoking…n to b honest…it’s not working at all okey!!bt I’m very sure that the ads in da tv is the most powerful one…coz it really makes me scared!!!i mean it!!!like I said…no matter how many thousands of ads been advertise…the decision will always be yours…today, it had been 10 months for me…n I’m waiting for another two months to achieve 1 target dat I never thought I will achieve…n now, I will…although there’s time when I fall to my own weakness…n start again…bt I realized it n stopped immediately…to u out there…when u want to do sumtink…first thing first….dun do bcoz of people want u to do…do bcoz u want to change…like u, da smoker, drug addict, drinker…do or do not…there is no try…once u said dat u want to try to stopped…believe me…u won’t success….coz deep inside u…u dun want to change actually…u said dat u’ll try juz to please others..n dat is so not fair for u…n to da person u promise too…guys…learn to love ur self before u start to love others…coz at the end of day..u’ll regret for not loving ur own self…think deeply…I’m nt saying dis bcoz I’m jealous or what…I talked based on experienced…adiox!!!

day when i go damn fool!!!!

hurm..today...after hving lunch with my buddies....we wanted to went to the highest floor...then suddenly when i'm on da escalator...my jeans stuck at the escalator...n my leg been drag at the escalator for around 15 minutes...demn!!!saket!!!then, suddenly, while they trying to save my leg...my knife been rampas by the security management...setupid!!!n my papa need to cum to n take my pisau..okey lar..my papa will cum..ehhehehe...laterrrrrrrrr

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!!!!!

17 sept 09

Holla..molla…coca-cola…ahhhahahah…ello, it’s up to me to write anytink in my blog…coz dis blog belong to me…allalala…well, dis Sunday, we gonna celebrate HARI RAYA..yehaaa!!!like I said b4 in my previous blog, I’m not sure what is my raya condition dis year..bt me n da rest of cuzzy, for sure will make our Raya like previous years…okey!!i still got others family here(although my grandma is in Kelantan)lalalala…I tink dis raya is da 1^st raya I’ll spent more with my frenz rather than with family..kot..i dunno la…let c how..to u Mr.Azriq n Miss Nedirah…thanx for spending ur fasting month with me..i really miss u dek..ahahahah…n to u, Mr. Muhammad Azwar…dun u noe remember the road to my house or what????mengong!!!menci ah ngan u!!welk!!um,ha..wait..dis time I wanna make speech in malay…coz I’m a malay(datz what willy said)hahahaha…hm, to sesape yg I pnah trkasar bhase, begau, sket an ati, krang aja, trlmpau rely on, kekdg gurw x kne tmpt n sume ah yg bley dketegory an as silp…I nk mnx maaf zhir btin…dr ujung rmbut smpai ujung kuku..hehehehe…to yg agk2 nk ckp mende yg sme(pasan jp)…dun wory, I dh maaf an kowg…xpnah dndam(de pon yg wat slah mlmpau uh r)k…nnti rye dtg ah umah…tp gtaw dlu k…n I akn srbu umah u all…okie dokie!!!hahahahhahahahah..(soie r ye, bhase rojk jp….allalala)okey guys, I’ll update my raya journey to u all soon!!!to COSMO student, dun forget me while u’re eating…hahahah..to kakak, fit3 n kak my..i wanna my angpau..allalalala…laterrrrrrr

STOP BEING SELFISH N PRETENDERS!!!!

16 sept 09

Well, I tink most of us always stuck in dis kind of situation rite???hurm, let me b clear, MY LIFE FULL OF DIS KIND OF PEOPLE!!!!!got it???n I’m demn sick of it….really!!!!huh!!well, I hate a bonding called friendship dat been build with pretending n selfiness of yours!!juz imagine when they only tink bout their selves n never tink bout others when they make such stupid DECISION!!!hw bout if I make da same decision like yours, n hw do u feel??u must be demn temper rite??so do I, NOW..i’m getting bored of all dis..u guys dun seems to care for others feeling…only tink bout urselves n ur own pleasure…what the heck!!urgh!!they dun seems to understand what others feel I tink…never mind…I always believe in karma…what goes around cums around…so, jz wait for da time when u, urself felt what I felt now..jz wait okey!!!hm, okey…about pretenders..well, jz stop being pretenders okey…stop lying dat u really care or into sumone, bt da facts is not…the pain dat da person felt is soooo much pained okey….jz tink bout them…if u dun pity urself, jz pity them…okey…till then, laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I sprain my hand…AGAIN!!!!

13 sept 09

Well, first n foremost…hepy birthday Nur Fathiha Mohamad Zafrullah…ahhaha….old meh..okey, back to my main point…em, I sprain my hand again..n dis time, it is damn pain..huhu…saket sgt2…coz I felt down from quite high place….I need to wear my hand support again…n FYI, I hate it..coz It really stop me from being active again..huhu…luckily, I juz wore it for only 2 days..now, I’m free..aahahhahaha…well, guys..i’ll get my glide license soon…another 3 session..dat is 20 hours more..hahahahahahaa…. ow, ya…raya is cuming soon…n I still dunno da status of my hari raya dis year….hurm….coz my grandma is celebrating raya at Kelantan(I’m not Klantanist)n as we noe, kelantan did not celebrate raya as havoc as we here…so, it will b sooooooo BORING!!!i tink, my 1^st hari raya will be at warisan puteri…grandma from mama side..obviously, I’m not dat ngam with them..i’m more to papa side…bt, as usual routine, we will went to all papa family members house to celebrated raya with them…hahahahaha…juz can’t wait to meet all my cuzens…missed them soooooo much…dis year hari raya will be da most unforgettable raya for kak bell obviously…pity u kak…bt, jz be hepy…we will always make u laugh..hahahahahahaha….okey…later I’ll update more….laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

The best day…as I can say…

11 sept 09

Well, we went to break our fast at JJ…actually it should b more than 10 of us…bt then, most of them r busy n can’t join us…our class end at 11.00 a.m…then, we went to Tesco n Jusco to buy sum stuff n played bowling…FYI, it’s ak idea…bt then, most of his frame, I’m da one who played it..hahahaha…lame…hahaahahahah…then, we went to KM Plaza…ak, took his t-shirt then, we straight up to Singapore street…went there to buy sum stuff…then, we send our 2 “lesbo” to cllege…(Dauz n Wan)..me n ak, now in da mission of nowhere…hahahaha…we 1^st went to Petronas coz I wanna to wee2~ahahah…n ak wanted to buy his top up…then, we went to Seremban Parade…juz to spent our 4 hours waiting for them…then, after that, we went to few housing area…try to find our friend house, bt again we nearly lost…hahahhaha..then, after we got bored coz going to the nowhere destination…at last, we give up..n went back to cllege…then, around 4.30..we shoot to MBO, send our scandal..dyha phylo…then, to JJ…there, while Ekin, Wan n Emy went for shopping…me n ak, having our small photoshoot..ahahahahaha..then, after break fast…we went to Lake Garden…really crazy..until da stage of, my heart beating getting slow…hahahah..then, we took pictures like hell…like theres no more tomorrow..n wanna noe sumtink…ak suddenly got his cramp…sengal!!!ahahhaha…we thought he juz playing around…bt this time his not…ahhaha….then, time to go back..it is a very tired day..bt we’re having so much fun…to those there…ak, wan, emy, kak fatin, cs, abg ery, apis,ekin n dauz….len kli kte lepak lg…tp kli neyh, ramai lg…laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Blame ur self for ur own mistakes…

9 sept 09

Well, I always hear such blaming statement such as, “ my parents r da reason 4 me to b like dis”, “he’s da one who make me suffer”, “she’s da one who scold me for the reason dat I dunno” n I juz cn say…DUN B STUPID!!!have u ever think dat, all da mistakes dat u have done, the main source is ur self???u r big enough to think…so, think..i’ve been told by sumone, to used my brain nt my instinct..i did it, n now I noe da meaning…I always make mistakes..well, who doesn’t rite??b4, I used to use my feeling n nt my brain…n as a result, it nearly killed me..huhu…so, used ur brain..it doesn’t mean dat if ur parents gives u the freedom, u cn do anytink dat u like n at the of it, u blame them for the decision dat u, ur ownself make…dun b stupid…n dun jz simply blame others for ur situation nw…recently, there’s one incident, I cn say, stupid incident..bt I make one good decision there…coz I settle it using my brain…n I act really matured…dat’s what k.dudu n k.lyssa said..hahaahah….well, what makes me surprised n demn shock is…when they love to hear from one side, n they said, dat main problem with me n that BFL,is cause by my jr…hellooooooo!!!what on earth makes u tink like dat???dun be stupid…n dun act stupid,although ur one…be matured..u r in cllege nw..not in the kindergarten or sumwhere dat u cn make such stupid action…huh!!okey, as I cn say here..to u BFL, if u read my blog…I dun care act..bt juz to say, I HATE U!!!!n I DUN EVEN GIVE A DEMN SHIT TO UR FEELING!!!n PLEASE STOP MESSING OTHER PEOPLE LIFE…B4, WE MESSED UP UR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!laterrrrr

12 years after Lady Diana passed away….

7^th Sept 09

Well, let say she is greatest princess in the world!! I admire her a lot…although the day when she died in horrible accident I’m only 7 years old…she is the greatest princess world can get…she got the touch of humanity, people princess,and a mother to two sons…my brother is a big fan of this great lady…so, he bought hundreds of book about this great women…n I read all of it too…she is a great person…she help millions of people…there no boundaries in race, skin color, or status…as I cn conclude, her smile that won the world…although with her marriage problem, she still gave the wonderful smile to world…D, u r a great person D….n u had leave for world another legacy..as I can say..great sons of yours…Prince William n Prince Harry…they got ur style n ur positive energy D…thanx for dat…I’m not one of British citizen…bt as I can say, I missed this great lady…n I’m very sure that all British citizen missed this great princess…I remembered one poem that I read in one of Lady D books..the poem is by Rabindranath Tagore…n this poem been read to Lady D by Rosa Mockton, President of Tifanny & Co….the poem r:

They who r near me do not know that u r nearer to me than they r,

Those who speak to me do not know that my heart is full with ur unspoken words,

Those who crowd in my path do not know that I am walking alone with u,

They who love me do not know that their love brings you to my heart….

If u really wanted to know what true love means…read this…n u’ll find it…n to lady D, u r my inspiration…thanx for that…R.I.P!!!

Shopaholic!!!!

6th sept 09

Ahhahahaha…aiyark!!!hehehe…well, I wanna say sumtink about shopaholic…bt not condemning them…well, they have da rite what..so??mind ur own business sdah…okey…guys..if u r a shopaholic..i have good deal for ur guys…well, if u want to shop till u drop, I suggest u to go to Suria KLCC n starhill..best deal u can ever get…well, in KLCC it self, u can get AIGNER, ANYA HINDMARCH, BCBG MAXAZRIA, BELLE, BVLGARI, CARTIER, CHANEL, CRISTIAN LACROIX, EASTERN TREASURES, ESCADA, FURLA, GIORGIO ARMANI, GUCCI, HERMES, HUGO BOSS, MAX & CO., MIKIMOTO, MONTBLANC, PEDDER RED, PIAGET, PRADA, SALVATORE FERRAGAMO, STUART WEITZMAN, SWATCH, SWATCH BIJOUX, TIFANNY & CO., TOD’S AND VERSACE…okey…in starhill, u can get CELINE, CHRISTIAN IOR, FENDI, JAEGER-LECOULTRE, KORLOFF, LOUIS VUITTON, MULBERRY, AND TOUS….all this list up brand for sure u out there da shopaholic noe bout it..guys, siyesly, u’ll get the best deal ever, n I tink if u go this two place, u will stay there till nite..hehehe…I’m not a shopaholic…bt I love to follow my friends who r shopaholic…I love to condemned n giving my ideas…hahaha…ya2, dat is me..lalalal…I went to all this store with my dude…n u noe what, it nearly killed me..huhu…dem u!!y??coz it takes till nite!!!uhuh…luckily she did bought some..if not…for sure…I’m gonna kill her!!!hahaahaha…well, need to bear in mind..please!!!dun shop till u drop…ahhahahahaa….hurm, ya…I forgot about PHILOSOPHY BY MEN, SEEDS, GOOGLE, PADINI AND GIORDANO…okey, this 4 is my fav store..ahahah..i cn stay there more than 3 hours…really admire this store..ahhahaha…this all I cn afford lar…others??wait till I work first..lalalala..okey guys…the aid is cuming soon, so, start shop now!!!!ahhaaha…laterr….

Comments for u DUMB2!!!

5 Sept 09

Well, yesterday my buddy, Dyha Phylo..read sumtink in one of dis stupid idiot myspace page…n it make me wanna comment sumtink about it…lately, bunch of idiot appeared in our cllge n making mess with our clan…ya2, we know we’re famous n fabulous…bt please lar…mind ur own business!!we dun messed u up, n please dun messed us up!!dumb2 u!!huh!!well, I am boyish..n most of us in my group style is our own style…funky bt still okey…as I cn say, all of us love latest things in market…n u noe what??theres sumone, or I can say MORON…said dat we’re r copying her style!!hello!!!!we’re not like u..lame!!we know hw to dressed up n nt like u, over doing in everytink!!LOSER!!!n as if we like ur fashion..urghhhhh!!!fucking idiot!!i really hate dis kind of people…really!!next, its about bunch of idiotic in cllege…well, they tried to attract us in I cn say WRONG way!!!they make us feel uneasy…they make us psyco!!crazy!!in fact they r actually!!they’re bunch of sick people from tanjung rambutan I tink!!sucks..hello guys, if u read my blog…go to hell with ur feeling…I dun care…coz I had enough in trying to control my temper n try to give my respect that u dun even deserve to…so, now juz go to hell...I dun give a damn shit to it!!okey…rite guys??hahaahaha…pg mampos r…k..laterrrrrr

The day when me n my cuzen lost in SEREMBAN!!!!

4^th Sept 09

Ahahhaaha…laugh if u want to laugh….bcoz I laugh like hell too…hahahaha…well, the story begin when we wanted to go n have fun in the middle of fasting day…(although I’m nt fasting dat day)hahahahha…me n ak,at first wanted to went to JJ n played bowling…bt then I decided to just when around seremban…we when to East West College…then, we went to Negeri Sembilan castle..Istana Hinggap…then, when we met one junction…ak asked me where the junction will bring us to..i said this is the road to kakak house..then, he said, lets go to her house…n as usual I have no prob with it…ahahhaha…then, we called her n asked her address…coz since I have STML…lpe sudah..ahhahaha…then, we hover at the same place for more than twice time…then, we nearly when back to my village in lenggeng…ahahahaha…well, worst cum to worst..of coz I’ll bring ak to my village..hehehe…then, after nearly half an hour searching for her house…we found her!!!hehehe…then we chit chatting for I tink around 15 minutes or more(STML)…then, we went back to cllge since kak my need her car back before 3…n kakak wanted to sleep n I dun want to disturb her…n juz imagine…the place where I n ak hover for more than half an hour is juz behind kakak house…hahaha..we’re so lame…sesat dekat sremban!!what lar..gagaga..well, nw we noe where is my sissy house…n I’ll be there!!hahahah….okey…laterrrrrrrrr..

Life from my side of view….

1^st Sept 09

Yesterday, da 1^{st day} on my new sem…my 5^th sem in Cosmopoint…well, as I cn say, lots of things happened n it change the point of life for me…while on da way back to my house…I saw this one old Chinese man…helping one uncapable women down from the bus..he hold this women hand n help her with her things..n for sure, she is not her wife coz I remembered once, I saw him with his wife…there, sumtink came up to my mind…love has no boundaries rite??there’s no means of race in love…color of our skin…or religion…that’s what sumtink we have in common rite???i’ve leran to love…to b love by…n I noe hw hurt it is…I still remembered my late tok wan said this, love the person that u care with ur heart, then u’ll get the love back…coz love from the heart is the most factual…it doesn’t matter to who…but it all must begin with ur heart…I trust what he told me…n I did it exactly what he told me to...bt time is always a factor…time change the situation…although I do give the love based on my heart…bt the person that I give the love killed my love jz like dat!!!bt I never blame anybody…I really believe in fate…the one dat have been fated 4 me from Loh Mahfuz…I believe in dat…tok wan, thanx for da advice…hw I wish u r still here with me…coz I noe, u will never hurt me…n let me down….tok wan is my grandpa..he really understand me…n tok wan, adk rindu ble tok wan pujuk adk bile adk sedey…I had lost too many people in mylife…n its really pained…deep pained…n for me, let me “go” first…coz I noe, there’s less people will feel the pained that I’m nt here anymore…coz I jz can’t accept the pained of losing anybody…anymore….guys, love the person that r still with u…cz u’ll never noe, when will u loss them…adiox!!

N I’m juz like…y u’re so obsessed with me????

30^th Aug 09

This lyrics belong to song title obsessed by Mariah Carey…well, what makes me write this kind of lyrics in my blog??let say dat I’m sick with this one particular person…let me make it clear,SICK!!!okey, although this person didn’t “kacau” me anymore..bt the way she treat her friends make me more sick…I’m close with one of her friend…this kid which I treat like my small sis…have sum common with me…stubborn!!temper!!crazy!!!n kind of into fashionista…aggaagagag…well, dis kid which I irritated with had done da same action to her friend dat is dis small kid, like she had done to me…aiyark!!!my words getting difficult to be understand...hahahaha...well, gul..if u read dis blog…juz stop being so OBSESSED with others…coz obsession really a true killer okey…it will nt only kill u..but others..in my P.O.V..i tink better it only kill u rather than others…coz the main prob is u!!!!got it!!!laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..

What does independence means to u???

31^st Aug 09

Today is MERDEKA day to Malaysia…our 52^nd independence day…well, let me ask u, what does “Merdeka” means to u??before u ask me da same Q,let me tell u what is my opinion to my own Q…okey…Merdeka, the day where we got our independence title…b4 dis, my opinion is, free from the colonist…I mean, the Japanese, Communist, British, Portuguese…all dis country r before our enemy…bt now, we’re united…dat is what Merdeka mean to me b4…bt now, dis is my opinion…merdeka mean freedom…the freedom to speak..to walk…to give your opinion…n the freedom to b free…I still remember my cuzen asked me, “klau kte dh merdeka, npe kte x bley buat ape yg kte suke??” I answer his Q by saying, if all of us in Malaysia, wanted to do what we wish to do, do u still think n see Malaysia will be dis peace???i juz want to say, no matter hw free we r, there r always a limit for all dat…if we’re too open, let say we say sumtink about our own country, like condemning Malaysia, dun u tink dat will show our weakness to others??it will only be big disadvantage to us…as Malaysian…to u, country traitor, remember, u will not found any success in ur life…it will only kill u slowly…trust me…trust the karma…what goes around comes around…n to Late Tunku Abdul Rahman, Tun H.S.Lee, Tun Sambathan n all the combatant for independence for Malaysia…we love u…n thanx a lot for the freedom that u all get for us…future generation…n to all youngsters n citizen of Malaysia…be grateful dat u r born in such beautiful n peace country….later…